Meth

Hey reddit I am a 23-year-old man from Saudi Arabia who uses meth. I tried for the first time 11 months ago, and since then I use it frequently , don't wanna get into details about why i got into this swamp because it's long irrelevant story . I took the decision to get clean for the first time at this month, succeeded for 6 days until I found that my job is on the line becuz I am on zero energy 24\7 i fight my self to get my a$$ out of the bed and if i did get up to work, am be like a zombie , I don’t get any work done in day 3 I went to the bathroom and slept for two and a half hours and I didn't wake up until my coworker was literally kicking the door . I live alone with my mom and i take care of her (financialy)and i rather die than see her inneed of anything and i cant afford it,i need something that just gives the energy to stay awake in work don’t worry about motivation or lack of happiness i really just need ENERGY… btw if i went to rehab not only im snitching on my self i most likley will be fired