Is everyone as creepy as I think they are

This might get a little winded but… in 2017-2019 I was in a situationship where I was taken advantage of. I let him drive my car while I was at work I let him stay with me without really knowing him.He was a liar, manipulator, con artist, thief, drug addict. The list goes on. Things got really messy. I shouldn’t forget to add he is a closet gay. ( I have nothing against gay people )

We were at the point where we were using substances where you tend to lose sleep and stop thinking logically. So there was a day I was getting ready in the upstairs bathroom and my ex was acting out of the norm. Going up and downstairs into my bedroom in the basement to randomly taking my dog for a walk. /which he never walked the dog so it seemed odd. He was acting strange. And I got the sense he was up to something shady but at the time I couldn’t figure out what.

Some time had passed and he was out of town doing something illegal, I won’t get into details. Everything was fine considering the circumstances until I was on the phone with him one night and he’s asking what I’m doing blah blah blah and I told him you know I’m just at home in my room and he says I know. And I’m thinking okay ya how does he know he’s just being a smart ass, and then he starts talking about stuff only I would know in the privacy of my room. He goes “do you talk to yourself?” I must of been having a convo to myself out loud. And then he said some other stuff about master******. Now I’m thinking wtf does he have a camera in here???

I had three shelves along the wall full of all sorts of stuff. A camera could have easily been placed among my things. I either didn’t respond to him questioning me or I have blocked out the memory. But either way he must have set a camera in my room and when I think back to the day he was acting really strange and erratic I think is the day he put the camera in my room.

I never found the said camera. We ended up leaving town because some serious shit happened and we were basically on the run. We end up at his buddies place. Who put off some pretty big gay vibes. Anyway we are there for a few weeks and my ex’s buddy from the town we left shows up and my ex says he has some leads he’s gonna get us some work blah blah blah. No work comes from him showing up other than some dark horrible shit happening and the three of them plus me continuing to do substances. Okay? Still following?

So me, my ex and his buddy from out of town (we will call him Carl) are driving around downtown and end up picking up this guy. Immediately I get the gay vibe from him. And he’s saying stuff like “dang how did you guys know like just by the way I was walking”

I’m driving and they’re all talking and my ex is sitting passenger Carl and the new guy are in the back. And they’re practically talking in code but it’s obvious to me they’re talking about being gay and sex n whatever. And my ex goes “ya he’s a great middle man, he’s got like a baby arm if you know what I mean” and I look over at him thinking like did I just f***ing hear that right. Like totally solidified that they are in-fact gay. My ex’s eyes immediately filled with water as if he knew he totally just slipped up. He didn’t even say anything to me nor I did him but we both knew it at that moment that he just fucked up and I know for sure they are gay. Now remember I’m basically living off this guy at this point because I lost my job and was kicked out of my place so I’m kind of stuck in this situation. Anyway they’re still talking we basically spent most of the day in the car and the new guy is going “oh you guys should come up to my place soon like both of your of just one at a time whatever” and then he says something along the lines of “do you talk in code” while someone else was talking you know like they were talking as if I wasn’t listening, it really made no sense.

This is only one example of what made me think he’s gay okay? Anyway back at my ex’s buddies place (we will call him Anthony) everyone is using and I’m using and I’m hanging out in the bedroom by myself. My ex comes in here and there to see me. And I hear this guy come over with this woman (hooker) and they’re all in the kitchen talking and I’m still in the bedroom and I hear the guy say “what are you watching her for?” And they shush him like they don’t want me to hear right? And immediately I think camera. They must have a camera set up on the bedroom. So I think it may have been that same night or different day where we had all been using and I was so out of it that I wasn’t coming out of the bedroom. And I could hear Anthony saying stuff like “is she H*** yet” because he knew if I was I wasn’t going to leave the bedroom. Then I heard him saying stuff like “are you boys ready?” *my ex always had viagra and never used it with me okay so when Anthony is saying “are you ready boys?” I’m thinking he’s meaning are they erect yet. It’s Anthony my ex and Carl in the living room. And to my belief they are having a threesome out there. I can only hear Anthony talking. I’m 100% sure they have a camera on me so I give the middle finger to the room and wave my hands around and I hear “how does she know” So after awhile I’m sort of coming down so I lay down and don’t move for a long time and I hear Anthony say “just totally passed out” which I’m not I’m laying there listening. And then his talking turns into complete nonsense saying stuff like “they sell stuff like dirt and trees and fencing at homehardware” “man I don’t even know what I’m saying anymore” as in him talking is a distraction to me that they are not having sex in the other room. Now I must have fallen asleep and don’t remember much the next morning or anything.

But a few weeks later I’m out on the front deck with Carl and he’s looking over the railing like he’s looking for something so I asked him what he was looking for and he goes oh buddy lost a 100 dollar bill down there so I was seeing if it was there. So I immediately think that they must of had the camera in this spot looking into the window to spy on me so they could do whatever in the living room. I did leave the bedroom twice to see if they were doing what I thought they were doing but by watching me in the camera they must of had time to stop what they were doing before I made it to the living room.

Now does that sound totally insane or were these people actually spying on me through a camera. I know for a fact my ex was spying on me in my room based on the things he saw me doing that only I would know about. So I would put it past them to then spy on me at Anthony’s place?

I feel crazy thinking about this s*** and it’s been hard to let it go and not think that people have cameras set up in my place like my landlord for example. I know first hand that their are some sick people out there so it doesn’t surprise me and to be a victim of such a disgusting act really makes you think twice. This definitely ended up much longer then expected. I don’t even care if you’ve read it to this point I hope by posting this it will give me some kind of relief from getting it off my chest. It was a very traumatic two years I spent with this person and there are still things that bother me from that time.