really heavy enemies to lovers

hi!!! i realised that when it comes to enemies to lovers trope people usually mean “slight rivalry for ten pages to sweet fluffy romance for the rest of the book” (i love red white and royal blue but no its not what i mean when i wanna read enemies to lovers stuff😭) and thats ok but i want to read something that will mess with my emotional state. toxic at first relationships, repenting bully x victim, religious trauma, armoured closet gays, anything!! maybe it’s already been discussed here btw sorry if i repeat some already existing posts i would be thrilled to see any suggestions! both mlm and wlw is great! thanks a lot in advance!