please need advice

so hua ye pehle last year maine yek college me admission krwa dia parents ne......but vo kaafi bekar tha so maine mid me chod diaa and xyz exam ke liye prep kia scored ache percentile udhar colleges ke offer letter bhi aage and mera bf bhi wahi hai so I really wanted ki main wahi uske pas jaun coz yahan main mentally theek nhi thi.....coz mere koi frnds nhi mere bf ke alawa n vo best h har chiz samajhta h (pov hum 6 years se relationship me h)

ab kl mere parents ne zabardasti admission krwa dia yek faltu college me bsc cs me kehti ki tune already yek saal barbad kr dia h to 3 yrs ka hi kar .....parents haad se jyda toxic h mere like seriously

ab mera long distance relationship h.... 1saal se wahi tha but ab tb hostel me thi ab gharse hi college jaane ka h

ik main manage kr lungi even he is ready ki vo sb sambhal lega but still mujhe depressing feel ho rha hai merse kuch kaam bhi ni ho rha main bs depressed feel kr rhi

bf bhi try kr rha ki calm rahun me but nhi ho rha merse lg rha rha sab kuch khatam ho gya kaise 3 saal rahungi me aise

ab batao mujhe ky krna chaiye