I feel terrible

Our new predicts came out today, and not to sound like a whiny little b i got 41/42 which is an amazing score. I got all 7s from my HLs but the thing is my predicted is putting so much PRESSURE on me.

The moment before our predicteds were given to our parents I had a Math AA HL IB exam and it went SO TERRIBLE, ive been sick for a week and I feel like I need to know all the topics so well that I need to get a good score DESPITE being sick. Like being sick is not an excuse for a bad score.

I will probably get around 60-70s maybe even lower. I’ll probably cry for a day and move on but god doesnt a bad score hurt especially when your teachers expect so much. The scores will be out on Wednesday and I also have my Chemistry Exam that day so my moral will be totally fucked like so bad I’ll probably flunk that exam too because I will be too tired from crying over my bad score from Math and most people are like “Well the scores havent even been out yet!!” Well sadly I’m smart enough to know my mistakes.

I feel like puking (not just from sickness too) and my mocks are coming up too (12th-20th of February) I really really need to get good scores from all my exams so that my predicted isnt for nothin.

Well any advice for how to get emotionally prepared for mocks? Honestly I’m so tired that I have a hard time studying. I could study for 8 hours straight last year and now after studying for 2 hours my head start spinning and I feel terrible.

Also words that tell me that I am not defined by one exam will be appreciated I’m desperate for validation like I said I know I sound like a whiny b “I have 41/42 predicted but I still need validation !!” Yeah exactly. I’m gonna die otherwise