Hello I have a bit of a dilemma

So essentially it’s about my relationship with specifically my mom. She was in a really good mood today and I asked if we had to go to church tomorrow and she got all mad and now she’s being really negative. Our relationship used to be so strong because we’re so alike but we disagree on some things and our relationship was strained ever since I came out unfortunately. She was so bad about it and now since then I don’t have a great viewpoint on Christianity and everytime I talk about it bad she gets really mad. I know I didn’t do anything wrong but it kinda hurts my heart to see someone be so happy and then be so negative just a little bit later. Idk if I’ll ever fix the relationship with my mom so I guess I was wondering how do I not feel bad about these things when I don’t do anything wrong? Like she hurt me so much when I came out and yet my heart still hurts when I hurt her and idk why and idk how to not feel that way. Tbh I don’t care about her opinion of me I just idk I guess I’m too empathetic idk. Sorry for the long rant any advice is helpful😭😭😭