How much do you have after paying all your bills and obligations in Finland ?

I’m genuinely writing this while crying. I don’t think I can talk about this to anyone so I’m pouring it here. Today 15th was pay day as most of us know. I paid all my bills, was short on food money but that I can manage by stretching our meals and I’m left after everything with 30€. What can I do with that? Eat lunch at work? I don’t anyway as I take my own food. Have coffees? Won’t be enough. I was hoping to sign for this workout class that costs 48€ but I can’t even afford that. That’s not why I started crying tho.

I have been here in Finland for 11 years now.I speak Finnish I work a specialist job and has been an active member of the community. I love it here but man oh man how sometimes I get frustrated when I see how others live. So I know a lady who is also an immigrant living here for 11 years too never worked a day in her life even before moving here and she had the audacity to throw a big tantrum because she don’t feel that she needs to pay for dentist appointment she had.. this lady has been getting unemployment funding and apartment subsidy her whole stay here. What Kela doesn’t know is that she has been getting money from abroad too in a foreign bank account and is living way more than comfortable as no typical even highly educated specialist would have 4000€ after tax in Finland. I got a bit sad as this has flipped me off . I haven’t been able to see my family for two years now because I can’t afford flights while she’s going to London to get her Botox next week. I’m sorry I know this sounds terrible and I’m ashamed of having these feelings but I don’t know what else to do. Last week she needed help with her new Finnish bank’s app (which Kela doesn’t know about) so she asked me to help her. I wasn’t peeking or anything I was literally helping her and she gave me the rights to set it up for her and I saw she has over 10k in a savings account.

I have been working for 11+ years and I have 0,29€ in my savings account. She genuinely think it is unfair for her to pay for dentist appointment. I don’t know what to say to her. I listened to her complaining and excused myself kindly cause I didn’t want to flip on her. I kinda know that what she’s doing is illegal (is it?) but honestly I don’t think she sees anything wrong with it… I never and will never wish less on others and I’m not here to teach anyone a lesson.

Sorry for the rant but I don’t know why I got these feelings this strong. Maybe because I felt that because I work so hard everyday and do my part at least I should be able to afford to see my mom and nephews this summer which doesn’t seem like a possibility. I have no idea how to feel or what to do about all these emotions.. I’m sure hard work someday will pay off 💔 If you made it this far thank you 💚💚💚