How do you do it

I’m 3.5 months in and I’m strongly considering switching to formula feeding my baby. Tonight I just wanted to relax with my fiancé and do our baby’s night routine together but I couldn’t because I had to wash the pumps, pump for 30 then wash them again so I can use the fridge hack overnight. I’m just so tired of this and keep thinking of what I’m missing out on because I have to pump. Any tips to make it to at least 6 months? My goal was a year but it’s looking impossible at this point :(