Just finished 4x12

I’ve watched plenty of heart wrenching movies/shows (even games), but literally nothing has came close to the effect Rita’s death has left on me. I literally just finished the episode and stared at the ceiling for an hour. I liked her character a lot and seeing her get closer to dexter these last few episodes was so wholesome, she was like a beacon of light in the show. I’m not upset they killed her off or anything, I think it was a great episode but I’m just in total shock. Nothing in a piece of media has ever made me cry but this is the only thing that has ever made me felt like it’s actually effecting me