Support & Advice Needed

This group has brought me so much comfort over the past few months - THANK YOU for helping me feel less alone!

I’m looking for advice, a hug.. I honestly don’t even know but I feel like this is the right group to help.

Next month will be four years of TTC including 3 cancelled IUIs, a failed IUI , a successful IUI that led to my son being stillborn at 23 weeks due to a fatal brain abnormality, two IUIs following his birth that both failed, then a cancelled egg retrieval followed by another egg retrieval on 12/1 (7 measurable follicles, 5 eggs retrieved, 3 mature which all fertilized but then seized in the morula stage).

I’m tired of being the “strongest person” everyone knows. I’m exhausted, heartbroken, confused, frustrated, angry… I’m 34 with a blocked left tube, and an AMH of .88 (down from 1.6 last year).

Here are my Qs: - Does anyone know of any DOR specialists in or around Michigan? - Has anyone else had an egg retrieval that didn’t go beyond the morula stage? If so, how did you troubleshoot? - Those who opted for donor eggs, what advice do you have for someone considering going down that path?

ER protocol: Estradiol patch primer, Follistim 300iu, Menopur 150iu, Ganirelix, dual trigger of Leuprolide and Pregnyl (HCG)

I appreciate any and all comments. Wish I knew the snake oil that would uncover the mythical cure-all for DOR so we could all be preparing for the holidays of our dreams. Lots of love xx