Help...!?

I swear by everything that breathes, I try in every way, but I never succeed, it's like something is stopping me... I haven't used DMT for a while, every time I prepare the bong or the pipe, it just sits there waiting, and I can never bring myself to pick it up and light it to proceed with the process... Could I be procrastinating too much? Fear? Anxiety? Is anyone else in the same situation? I'm always waiting for the right moment, but it feels like the right moment/state never comes.

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