How do you know you breakthrough?
This weekend I was tripping on 2.5 tabs of 1p-LSD. During this trip I get the strong urge to smoke DMT, it was like that lsd was telling me i had to smoke DMT. I already have a few experiences with DMT but always sub doses. This time I wanted to go for a breakthrough.
I had weighed out a dose of 45 mg and vaporized through my dab rig. After heating and inhaling 3 times I was gone. With the low doses I heard a iiiiiii sound getting louder and louder while I felt like I was going to be launched via rocket but I did not have this with this trip.
After my third inhale everything stood still for a second and the next moment I was in a box where the top lid was open. This box was in a hyperspace warehouse where very briefly I saw an entity searching among the boxes. when he saw my box he pushed it away and I came back into my living room where the visuals were still going tremendously hard.
I had felt after this experience that this was not the breakthrough experience that I had often read here and thought maybe I had not vaporized the dmt properly. I had done everything myself and left from a cold start.
So I weighed 45 mg again and asked my girlfriend if she would vaporize it and hand the bong to me if I needed to inhale. After my third inhalation I again did not have that sound I heard other times and my reality stopped again for 1 second. The next moment my reality was changing all the time. First my whole living room, girlfriend and dog was a cartoon, then an 80's video game and so my vision kept changing all the time. I got the message, “which reality do you want?” . I grabbed my girlfriend because I felt like everything was slipping away and realized that she was really the only thing I wanted. At that moment I began to quietly come back and felt so much love when I held her.
Both trips were mindblowing but felt very different from the breakthrough stories that I often read here. Do I have wrong expectations or did we not properly vaporize the dmt?