I HATE HAVING A CRUSH😾

WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS. WHY IS IT THAT EVERY TIME I GO TO SECRETLY LOOK AT AND ADMIRE HIM HE’S ALREADY STARING AT ME BRO JUST LET ME LOOK AT YOU IN SECRET IN PEACE. WHY DOES MY HEART FEEL LIKE THIS EVERY TIME HE LOOKS AT ME OR TALKS TO ME. WHY AM I SO AWKWARD I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE PLEASE LORD GIVE ME SOCIAL SKILLS 😔😔😔

sorry im going crazy bc ive never had a crush on someone like this and certainly not this intense or for so long (my past crushes mostly consist of me forcing myself to like people in elementary and then being a homeschooled shut-in in middle school LMAO)