I’m not sure if this is a sin 😭
Hil! For context, I've just bought merch last month to treat myself and I'm not sure if it's considered as a sin since l've bought pins and keychains of two male characters that are shipped heavily in the Genshin fandom (Alhaitham and Kaveh), however they are not explicit or outwardly portrayed as homosexual as they were just cute innocent pins and keychains for each character. I used to be a hard shipper until I mellowed down in viewing the two of them as a ship and liked seeing them as just a duo recently (literally the type you can’t imagine a character without since they are often always associated with each other in one way or another but there is no implication of romance between them). I'm more interested in Alhaitham since he's my comfort character and I don't share the same interest with Kaveh. I only bought merch of him too since I thought it was cute to have the two of them complete in my collection for my ita bag. The reason why I had Kaveh too was because I didn’t want to leave ‘the boyfriends separated’. HOWEVER, a little part of me contemplates if this is a sin since I used to indulge in homosexual content in fiction or fandom works (even though Alhaitham and Kaveh are not in a relationship canonically). I'd feel so guilty if this turns out to be a sin since I've spent money on merch of these two already.... I can still keep my Alhaitham merch but l'm not sure what to do with my Kaveh keychains and pins as l'm not interested in him compared to Alhaitham. I could either keep my things related to Kaveh and change my mindset around this pair just being best friends or a cool duo rather than a couple or find a close friend one day whom I can give them away to as a gift so I wouldn't have to worry about my money being wasted.
I know this doesn’t really sound serious and may come across as silly but I just wanted to make sure if I’m making good decisions with my money and how I interact with fictional material (I know shipping characters with the same gender seems harmless to many but as someone who suffers from lust, this is usually a trigger for me as a lot of bl content and fanart within fandoms are usually a bit or very explicit…)