This Thursday will be my last day.

I have decided that this coming Thursday will finally be the day I end it all. I’ve decided I’m going to try the partial hanging method. I’ve chosen Thursday because it is my 33rd birthday this Thursday. I’m not sure why I’m posting this tbh. I just feel like there is no relief in sight for this hell I’m trapped in. All day and all night I cry and just want the pain to end. I don’t want to die but i also don’t want to live. It seems everyday I get a little more tired and death has become more of an option as I grow mentally weaker. I’m exhausted and just want it to end. Please don’t ask why I’m doing this. I don’t feel like talking about my situation. Like I said I’m not sure why I’m posting this. I pray that God will forgive me.