Came to the realization that every adult in my life growing up failed me.

TW: Possible symptoms of abuse

I know my parents are manipulative, I know the people around me are really good at what they do (abusing), but why did no one see the signs? Why did no one help?

I feel like I was good at hiding how I felt the majority of the time, but there were so many signs of abuse growing up. I would refuse to go to the doctors, I would cry almost every single day at school for the littlest things, I would flinch at every loud noise, I hated physical contact no matter how small, I would beg my parents not to see certain people.

Yet no one saw the signs. Or did they see them and decide to turn a blind eye? I don't know. I've never felt so disappointed or defeated in my life. Coming to the realization is one thing, but processing it is a whole other thing...