I feel like I’m hypersensitive towards the possibility of p*dos due to CSA and it in turn makes me feel disgusting — help?

I don’t know for sure that I got SA’d as a kid but I have a bunch of symptoms and one in particular has always really bothered me. Like if I see a little kid in a dress, I’ll rationally know she can wear whatever the hell she wants but this tiny part of me freaks out because of the possibility of pdos. And obviously because pdos prey after EVERYTHING about children it goes for everything. Tights, short kids skirts, especially on social media where a kid is in the bath or something. I think the worst ones are related to triggers about what happened to me; like it’s easier to be rational about male children then female children because I am AFAB.

Like the idea of trusting someone to change a nappy really freaks me out because of this stupid hypersensitivity. Because as a kid I could never be without clothes around an adult. And it makes me feel DISGUSTING because normal people don’t think like this! The only person who notices this sort of stuff are people who prey after children, and I definitely do not but because I notice I feel gross.

Rationally I KNOW the kid can wear whatever she wants. But I’m scared on her behalf, and my fear makes me feel gross

I’m sorry if I’ve done an awful job explaining but please if anyone has any help I feel like I’m disgusting