Being stuck with your abuser with no way out is exhausting.

I hate it so much. I hate that it takes so much energy just to survive, I hate constantly being forced to watch my peers have fun while I have to scramble to even keep myself afloat throughout the day. I hate being stuck and not being able to afford what makes me happy. I hate that the abuse saps any energy or passion for life I may have left over - I basically cannot be myself as long as I am stuck here. I am so tired.