Kinda put myself in this..

She emotionally ghosted me months ago until I noticed it to confront her about it. She said it’s extra work and tiresome just to talk to me atp. World and soul-shattering breakup. Also, I’ll be leaving overseas in a month for work and my family, and we’ll be in a ldr. She can’t see it working without even trying. It hurts— but I tried to understand. Once a week post-breakup, I kept sending her Hail Mary messages about me being in a dire state and begging to reconsider. Nothing— and she’s getting tired of me even more. Idc at this point, I’m at my wits end. Right before boarding the plane, sent her another message. Seen. Replied a week after. She said she’s comfortable now talking to me as a friend. I’m getting updates from her every now and then because we have a dog— everyday or every other day. I love the dog so much so I tried to help her financially. Then she’s in kind of trouble, my hardwired heart immediately tried to help her about it. She’s shy and really does not want it, but I insisted. As a friend, she updates me at least 5 days a week about her life and sends any random things/pictures to me. My hopeful ass turned this into an assumption or a slight chance of comeback. Ask her about it, still a hard no. We kept talking until end of last year, then stopped a week into the new year. Week gone by and still nothing. My gut tells me that she now likes someone. Fair enough. Gave her a courtesy message that I’ll unfriend her in all of socials, because I can’t still take the pain of seeing her with someone else. And I want to finally let it go. I’m happy for her tho.

Anyway, I’m not blaming her. Just want to let it out and tell this story because I don’t have any close ones to tell this. I guess a group of supportive strangers sounds a good option to let it all out.

In a rut. Feels empty again. Hurting every time my eyes are open. Crying when I’m alone. Life sucks. She’s the loml. I really want it to be her. I’m still hopeful somehow idk how we’ll get back together.

Thank you for reading! I’ll appreciate any comments, and opinions you have!