I folded and texted him.

Long story short - I f(22) got broken up with 4 days ago on new years just 3 hours after the ball had dropped, over text. I was with him (25) for 4 years. I’m devastated. He’s currently on vacation and I’ve texted him, now twice, about having a conversation when he comes back in person because I have some unanswered questions due to him telling me stuff he was hiding from me while we were together. He never responded to my first message so I sent another just now. I made it pretty formal as well and even explained that this is not me trying to get back together. I just want to say some things to him in person along with asking some questions. I realized that he probably won’t answer this message either and if he doesn’t, I don’t know what I’m going to do. It feels like I just need him to respond. To say something, anything at this point. It doesn’t feel fair. If anyone can maybe just tell me what I should do if he never answers me back or how not to just try and wait around and obsess over him responding I would GREATLY appreciate it.