Sent her a message

I just sent her a message, about the things that i have regret and i wanna talk. She didnt view it and i ask most of my friend to stalk her for me on Insta. I was getting better for the last week of Dec, until my brother told me that he thinks she is getting flowers from someone based on what she is posting. It really hurts. My mind my heart my body is in pain. I don’t care anymore if i ever lose my respect on myself even if i have to beg to be honest. New year and i think im back at it again.

Sorry for the bad english