Do anybody generally feel sad when they see the MIT bus passing by?

I don't know if it's just me or also you. I had this kid from hs who got into MIT and I ended up opposite him. Always made me sad and jealous for some reason, but I am never on the "overachieving side" anyway. I don't know if I should see a therapist cuz I kept feeling envious all the time. I know this is shitposting but this kind of feeling is ruining me life