Quiet BPD

Anyone else with the more non-reactive side of BPD ever fantasize about snapping and showing people how sick you are? It feels like no one takes it seriously because I don't act out in the "typical" way with BPD (Thanks to years of therapy, and perhaps the intense people pleasing that comes with masking autism.)

It's like I have to convince people that how sick I am is real, or I'll feel crazy. When I'm in such intense lows it literally feels like I am dying, and it's daily. Maybe it has something to do with wanting to see how much effort I put into living? Don't know.