peers think being bipolar is cool

i blame tiktok for the glorification of it. it's so pervasive and everyone thinks they've had manic episodes because they impulsively dyed their hair once at 3am or became giddy for an afternoon. this shit ruined my life?? the only manic episode i ever had ruined my life and i'm not having fun. i wish i could implement the sensation of having a mixed episode onto the people off handedly claiming they have bipolar so they would shut the fuck up for once. the wanting to rip your skin out and you're so wired but also too depressed to do anything about it feeling. one manic episode and i dropped out of college, fucked a cab driver, spent 100k (in my currency) and almost spent my entire life savings on a pipe dream and left everyone i ever loved but you wish you had bipolar because you can't stand being the ordinary fuck you are. i saw my mom in the throes of psychosis because of her bipolar but yes this is so much fun!!!!!

sorry but whenever someone says they're bipolar i just instinctively shut off out of anger and idk how to deal w that