I binged almost 9k calories last night

I hate myself and just need to rant to a community who gets it. I’m not looking for upvotes or whatever, I just don’t have anyone in real life to vent to about this. I’m not sure what triggered it, I had been doing well for a week. I ate ice cream and cookies and donuts and all this unhealthy crap. I felt absolutely sick this morning. Anyway, I just needed to tell someone because I’m shattered. I love you all.