(NEED HELP)19f NEET and Depression are killing me and I'm helpless

I moved into hostel 30kms away from home in April 2023 to prepare for NEET 2024 I haven't studied anything in these 9 months

I can't get myself to do anything.

Getting up from bed is difficult. Going downstairs to get water is difficult. Can't fall asleep If i fall asleep can't wake up Haven't been going to coaching in a month Sometimes I can't eat at all sometimes I eat to the point of ripping my stomach I'm sick and tired all the time Can't get myself to shower Can't get myself to brush teeth I can't get myself to do anything I have no real friends and I have no human interaction at all.

I AM DEPRESSED I don't know what to do about it anymore I desperately need help or else I don't know what will happen to me

I asked my parents multiple times and even explained everything sincerely They brush it off and shame me that it's all in my head And Depression is just an excuse I'm making for my low score on tests And how it's just overthinking.

I dont have any money to seek professional help so I've tried everything natural method that is anti depressive, it worked for a moment then back to hell Throughout these 9 months I fall miserably in this dark spiral then try to get back up just to fall again and again and more miserably than before, I can't do this anymore. It just doesn't work. My situation has gone too far I guess.

I'm thinking of getting help asap or else idk how this is going to end. I have very little pocket money and I don't know how am I supposed to get help so here i am , writing this post.

IF YOU KNOW ANY WAY THAT I CAN GET PSYCH HELP FOR FREE OR ANY RESOURCES THAT CAN HELP, PLEASE HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS.

any advice is highly appreciated Thank you for hearing me out.