Will my exwBPD be my only seriously affectionate partner, forever?

I had an ex w serious self destructive/impulsive/secretive/projecting/blame avoiding/lying qBPD traits that I was reflecting on recently.

In retrospect, I never had another relationship or dating situation where the person was that willing to be affectionate, to date,have s#&, and be physical with me.(Emotional intimacy didn't exist, they were emotionally cheating and almost physically cheating. Also emotionally stunted and gathering orbiters for validation, possibly s#&-working, and couldn't act in an adult loving way to save their life). Never had that passion from anyone else in my life, not even close. I'm starting to think that if it weren't for the BPD impulsive pathological idealization phase from that ex, that I would have lived my entire life never having had anything like that, because most other people are not attracted to me. I would have likely remained single or in very transactional dispassionate relationships.

I'm back in the dating scene and nothing like that passion that has yet to happen. I'm generally treated like nothing by other dating prospects. I am sensing that unless I meet another person with BPD, (which is the last thing I would like to do), that I will be unwanted for the rest of my life, like how it mostly was before this ex.

TLDR: Had exwbpd and fearing I will have no future relationships or passion due to lacking interest/passion from other dating prospects.