Is it worth getting tested ?

My psychologist thinks that my social struggles and inattentive traits may be due to autism, and encourage me to be tested.

However, this is mentally a very though process. So before I engage with it, I want to be sure it is really worth it.

First, I don’t know if I have specific interests. People around me always complained that I was a lot in my world, and I was told by the past to be obsessive. However, those obsessions were rather about my own stories that I imagined in my head for escapism. As a kid, I had very little interest to bond with others, because I had simply no interest in being myself in this world. I preferred to be my character from my universe and did “roleplay” alone. I was interested to play with others if I could get them playing my stories. This is still true to this day, I prefer roleplay than real life and there are two very specific worlds that I like now and that I have characters I roleplay in it. So if I had a special interest, it would be this ? I however don’t know if this is truly a specific interest, or simply due to trauma, which makes me want to not live as myself at all. So a different issue. I also like drawing.

I don’t know if I really have sensory issues. Agitation exhaust me and I need a lot of time alone daily. But I hadn’t meltdowns because noise or lights. I have weird intolerance to some fabric and smells since always though. Like certain type of papers like newspapers, I can’t touch it at all neither be around it. I can’t handle being in socks on scratching fabric, only handle certain fabrics of blankets or clothes, but that’s all. I am not picky eater except with some textures of vegetables which is quiet common.

I wasn’t delayed into speaking. Wrote a little earlier to write my stories, but struggle to write a lot today due maybe to perfectionism, exhaustion or depression, maybe all of that, who knows. I don’t think I have things like echolalia. I don’t collect stuffs. I don’t info dump. I have a quiet awful memory, and it’s hard to express myself directly orally because I tend to forget everything, even things that I know when I talk, which makes me look dumb and ignorant. I have a very bad elocution. I was not gifted at school, I struggled a lot.

I am not posting there to be given a diagnosis, but to know if it is really worth investigating and putting myself in the emotional, mentally though process of passing tests in a specialized center.

Does anything of this makes you think of autism ? Do you think it is really worth it to get tested ?