Ranting here because my husband thinks I’m tripping

So I just had twins and they are in the NICU. We’ve been staying in the NICU. I sleep on the couch(it coverts to a bed) and my husband sleeps on the chair.

Our usual doctors usually comes in and stands near my sons and gives us a report on how they are doing.

Today are usual doctor isn’t here. It was a doctor who we’ve met before. But this man comes in and sits on my “bed” next to me. PROBLEM NUMBER ONE. Why are you sitting on my bed with your outside clothes, why are you sitting next to me at all?!?!!

Then as he’s talking he’s STARING INTO MY SOUL. I wasn’t making eye contact for the most part because I’ve done a lot of unmasking. But every once in a while I’d look up to show I was listening and his eyes Omgosh UGH then as he’s talking he PUTS HIS HAND ON MY SHOULDERRRRR!!!

WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING ME SIRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!????!!!??!?!

I am so uncomfortable and irritated and mad right now. My husband thinks I’m tripping but I give him grace because he doesn’t fully understand the spectrum life yet. He’s learning.

But do yall think I’m trippin?

(I’m unofficially diagnosed; was screened for it and told my symptoms align with autism)

TL;DR : DON’T FREAKING TOUCH ME !!!!!!!!!!! & STOP WITH ALL THE STARING 👀 LOOK AWAY MAN! LOOK AWAY!