Family is miserable because of me
I am 20 and I still live with my family. For some background history: I have had a lot of mental health struggles that have put me in a ton of residential facilities and hospitals which (since being diagnosed with autism) I realized partially stemmed from me trying to function and get through everyday life. I have been home for about a year and currently live with my parents. I have made it a priority to stop the maladaptive coping skills which landed me in psychiatric treatments, though it means my parents see my breakdowns and my sensory issues. Recently, it is getting harder to push against the previous bad habits because when I am having a breakdown or start stimming more due to overstimulation or just being overwhelmed my parents will tell me things like “you make my life miserable, you are so selfish, you only think about yourself, etc”. I understand living with me is difficult, I am really sensitive to things, but I have tried to communicate with my parents about how I am not doing anything maliciously, and I have tried to explain how my brain works. I don’t know what to do because I don’t want to be yelled at or ridiculed by my parents for my behaviors. I don’t know what to say to them to help them have more compassion for me rather then anger. I am trying my best and I don’t know what else I can do.
Summary: I still live with my parents who criticize me for my breakdowns and stimming. I am trying not to go back to using maladaptive coping, but I don’t know what would help the situation.