My future looks so bleak

I turn 61 this year. I don’t feel like a senior citizen but I found out a few months ago that I am. I think about buying new furniture for my living room and I rationalize—what’s the use; you live alone, work from home, don’t have visitors, and you’re at the age to have a stroke or heart attack. I think about plastic surgery and I use the same rationale. I know it sounds crazy but I do not know how to get out of this rut. I have a so-call SO in another state but I have no desire in dating locally. Everything seems to be based on the above rationale. I do not have a pet and I am unsure I want one because of expenses and if something happened to it, I would be devastated. Any advice?

EDIT: I am amazed and grateful for the love I have been shown here. Your comments alone lifted my spirits. I definitely plan on taking many of your suggestions. I can’t wait to drop in at a shelter and look at the available rescue pets and to go look for a couch. I will get out and enjoy my life instead of being held back by my fears.

I really didn’t expect the number of comments that I received. I am reading all the comments and trying to respond to everyone because I genuinely appreciate your taking the time to advise me so I can get out of my rut.

I wish you all have a safe and happy 2025. ❤️❤️❤️