My boyfriend became religious and it’s eating away at me
Recently, my boyfriend has started a religious journey and accepting religion into his life. I fully support it, and I want to do everything in my power in order to support him. One thing that’s changed about him is that he’s chosen to be celibate until marriage (we have had sex before.) He decided to wait to tell me this until I made him really uncomfortable by just flirting with him like I normally would. I talked to him about how that part upset me and broke my trust and we have since moved past it.
The part that’s been eating away at me is my hypersexuality. I know it’s not his fault, and it’s unfair to be upset about his boundaries, but my brain is telling me that if I’m not sexually appealing then that means he’s not attracted to me/doesn’t love me. I know how immature it is, and I feel so guilty for letting it consume me, but I feel like I’m suffocating and I have no one else to talk about this to.
I want to be able to come to a compromise with myself without him having to give up his beliefs or break up. I just feel so lost, what should I do?
Update: I talked with my boyfriend and he admitted that he’s actually fine with sex and he just said that because he was sick and going through a depressive episode. Mind you he said this a month ago. I’m frustrated, but we talked it out and everything is fine now